MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE I LOVE YOU GUYS

so my aunt is out here from new york and i dont normally celebrate but this year we did it a little bit since im not at my dads im at my grandmas XD i think its cool actually i just finished cooking this really good dinner and what not

man sometimes i get really depressed with who i am and how little im accomplishing and it really sucks to be me sometimes DX god i dont know whats wrong with me *head desk

anyway love you all

-zula

DAMN I HAVE SO MUCH HOMEWORK THAT IM NOT DOING RIGHT NOW AND THAT I HAVE TO GET DONE THIS WEEKEND DX FUCK IM SO FUCKING STRESSED RIGHT NOW SINCE I HAVE FUCKING 3 B'S AND I WANT/NEED A'S MY GRANDMAS COOL BUT SHE EXPECTED A'S AND ITS SO FUCKING STRESSFUL!!!!!!!!!!!! GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR

god i wish i was pretty if i was then i could get the guys i like to notice me, id have the guts to talk to them since i wouldnt have to worry about rejection if only life where that easy

FUCK MY LIFE DXX

-zula

lols omg im like i said im always online i just keep blanking when it comes to lj so ya im gonna try and post every day like i used to >,> but you know we'll see

lols ok so one of the guys i like (we call him jingles) hes the one that wasnt as cute but seemed really funny well he shaved his head not like bald well he didnt really have long hair in the first place and theres still alot anyway my friend told me and i was like OH NO i bet it looks SO bad and i saw it and i was all i think it looks good XD but all my friends think im like crazy since they all think hes ugly. when i told one of my friends that i liked him her first reaction was to laugh like REALLY loud.

idk whats wrong with me maybe i just have bad taste now?? who knows

well other than that i have so much hw now DX it sucks i have to write an essay for world cult. and an essay for spanish IN FUCKIN SPANISH WTF and its about my opinon on the book my crazy ass teacher gave us to read which is also in ALL SPANISH i SUCK at spanish so im really screwed

im also really worried about my grades i have like fucking 3 Bs and im bearly hanging on to the two As i do have its driving me up the FUCKING wall i have to raise them all to As by the end of the semester or its going to drop my whole GPA GOD THIS SUCKS its really stressing me out DXXX

so thats all for right now love you all

-zula

Looks like i missed everyones birthday they're like all at the same time i hope everyone's well XD. How are all of you guys how are the birthdays??

so i live with my grandma right now my mom is finally divorcing my dad thank goodness since i hate him hes such a jerk XP ya so idk why i haven't really been on lj i just go on gaia and da all the time but not lj and so i was like you know what i need to talk to my friends XD so here i am

right so nothings really going on in my life cross county is over but me and my friends go running after school on mon wed fri so we can stay in shape its pretty cool XD and i think ima do indoor lacrosse since i really want to be on varsity you know XD oh and i got a job basically this restaurant was hiring and i talked to the owner and he seemed to like me XD so ya i get to make some money XDDD go i need new clothes to so its a really good thing

oh and nothing really interesting has happened with the guys i like so ya pretty boring actually

love you all

-zula

ps ZOMFG I WATCHED DARK KNIGHTS AND IT WAS EPIC OH AND FOR REAL JOZULA FTW SHES LIKE THE BEST OF THEM BOTH XDDDDD

mmk so im pretty proud of myself since i joined cross country my times have improved by like a minute and in this sport thats alot! oh and i found out that they make cuts for wrestling so i doubt ill have to do anything since ill get cut! and then i can do indoor lacrosse and weight training like i wanted to!!! yay!

so in school im bummed cuz i have an a- and like 2 bs and a b- (the other 2 are a's) but its really not cool since i want strait a's and im really worried about keeping my grades up you know so ya thats not so great>,>

oh and im geting members for my clubs right and left for my lj on i have like 58 and on da we have like over 70 i didnt count but im pretty happy about that! oh and im piss since my computers broken that means i cant scan anything and i did a few drawings i want to post DX

so now to whats bugging my remember that guy i told you guys about in my last post i found out he likes this senor and i dont know if she likes him but i mean its not like shes turned him down yet so who knows and shes really nice and pretty and i like her but i feel bad since im really jealous you know oh and i didnt tell you guys about the other guy i sort of like but i dont know for sure. hes in my english class and he dose cross country too, hes really tall nice >,>

anyways thats my life right now but and im sorry i cant get online more offten cuz i miss you guys sooooooo much talk to you all as soon as i can
later
-zula
ps how is everyone its been a while

so i got cut i was sooooo sad when i saw that like the coach was my 3rd grade teacher and then my elementry pe teach so iv been wanting to get on this team for seven years DX and i really tried you know and it kinda sucks when your bests not good enough >,> oh well i think im just gonna quit soccer even though i really liked it i dont think i really want to do it any more who knows if they have a rec team next year i might just do that

anyways im going to do cross country >,> which iv never done before i just know that its alot of running soo ya ima try that and see how it goes Xp

so other than that i havent really been doing anything like im just on my gaia and moding my clubs. oh that reminds me im really getting into hitsukarin and i feel like iv helped it grow you know and it feels good XD like when i started there was no clubs on lj and now theres two and the one i started (the first one) has 49 members
and then the club that im moding on da even though i didnt start it the other mod NEVER goes on so it like its my own XD when i started there where like maybe 20 members and now theirs like 65 so and we have alot more fanart (and alot better fanart too) and it feels good like i really had a hand in making the fandom grow its cool XD


so ima talk about something i havent really done befor and thats guys you know i come off as really confident and i dont really show it but i get really shy like i said i can play it off but inside ill get really nevious around the guy i like and in the end i dont have the nerve to talk to him and it kind of sucks like i should be old enough to do this and i dont know if i told you guys about him but i still have a crush on this one guy and hes on cross country too *wink and since my dads making me do wrestling hes on that as well *wink not to mention he plays lacrosse (which i love) and soo do i so basicly im doing all the same sports as him so hopefully ill get a chance (and the guts) to talk to him and find out more about him (other than the fact that he's really hot) lols soo ya thats my life right now XD

i love all of you guys XD

-zlula

ok so i know i havent posted in like forever but i has been busy with all my communities >,> oh and i has a gaia now ya XDD the user name is Fire Queen Azula if you want to find me ;D

soo ya my life is really crazy right now me and my dad got into it basicly cuz hes a crazy controle freak and i hate him T-T he snaped my lacrosse stick (which is metal) in half and took my phone away and gave it to my little sister to list the little things everything else i dont really want to talk about >.> anyways i basicly had an azula meltdown and it was like all the shit i had put up with overflowed and next thing i know i was like screaming at him like id lost my mind and crying and ya like i said azula mealt down times like 3 not pretty

anyways im at my grandmothers iv been here for like a month or something like that so i could get away from my crazy father but i have to go home like saterday and i dont want to do that cuz i know its gonna suck DX he really is like crazy he wont let my mom buy me school clothes T-T thats just fucked up in my opinion who dose that i was really pissed but thankfully this year i was hell bent on geting good grades so i got this scholarship thing that gives me a check for 350 so i can use that money to buy clothes but i dont get it till sept 20 and school starts sept 3 so ya that sucks XP

anyways for the last week iv been runing 3 miles and doing 600 situps to try and get back in shape for soccer and now this week has been tryouts im really worried that im gonna get cut like i really want to make the team and i dont know if i will or not it just really depends you know god im nervious if i get cut i guess i could do another sport but i dont know if i could sign up for anything else and god knows i want to be out of the house as much as possibel due to the psyco father sooo ya

anyways thats my life T-T ya.... so ill talk to you guys later mmk XD

-zula

ps whats up with you all i havent been on like at all soo i have no idea 0-0

mmk so im at my friends house right now so i have to be quick but one of my online friends asked me to make a twilight communtiy for her and so i did http://community.livejournal.com/twiliight_fics/ thats the link in case some one wants to check it out XD oh and i made one on da too http://twilight-fics.deviantart.com/ thats the other link both of these sites are just all about twilight its not specified parings or anything just a bunch of twiligh t fans but i made both of these like in the last day so we need neew members so check them out if you can thatd be cool XD

well miss you all (what are yo all up too?)

-zula

hey i started a summer contest over at my hitsukarin community and this was my entry XD


Beach kiss by ~firequeenAzula on deviantART

so did you see it omg this is bulshit how could m&b do this like everything was pointing to zutara right!? i mean he jumped in front of lightning for her and like early jumped to save her from the rocks in the ninja epi! like omg this sucks i know that m&b put so much zutara stuff in the ending just to fuck with us god i want to like slash their tires !!!!!!!!!!!!! GGGGGGRRRRRRRr motherfuckers !!!!!!!! how could they do this my god even though i knew that zutara didnt happen i was like there is no way they dont do it now like they gave me all this hope and then out of no where its all mako and katang DXXXX whatever but the end was a total clif hanger cuz zuko asked about his mom but they didnt like show anything about it DX what the hell? when dose season 4 come out? dose any one know how its gonna work?

sorry i have to make this quick but i love you all XD
im doing this advance science class thing at a college and my computers being gay DX my dads the bigest ass on earth hes so fucking crazy like really im very sick of having to put up with him. Im so ready for the finally for avatar XDD well see ya when i have more time XD
-zula

Yes finally its summer no school! I'm so happy but now i kinda miss school cuz i have nothing to do DX my coach for my soccer team quite so i don't have a sport to play and I'm worried that I'm gonna get out of shape >.> cuz I'm always so lazy during break. other than summer break I'm not really doing much. oh but i found a paring I'm crazy about (other than zutara) hitsukarin i started a community on livejournal and unfortunatly one of the two mods for the da community quite ;_; but i asked if i could be a mod and the other mod stick-on-fire said it was cool which makes me happy XD if anyone was wondering about that contest i entered in it but didn't win anything DX oh and since i don't have a camera and schools over that means i cant take anymore photos but i do have all the photos i shot during that class saved on my computer so i can post some of those XD.

ok so other than the fact that im bored out of my mind i want to go to school cuz theres this one guy that i like he plays lacrosse,cross country, and wrestling. so hes super atletic and HOT omfg but i'm depressed cuz hes like way out of my leuage wich sucks really i wish i was prettyer then all the guys i like might actually like me DX wow angst *sigh i'll get over it
wow i didn't mean for this to be so long XD

-zula

ps how is everyone i havent had a chance to look and see what you all are up to ;D

i know iv been gone for a while but you all know iv been as busy as ever what with finals cominn up im freaking out cuz i what to keep my 4.0. and my dad is being a dick and saying that i have to join wrestling wich i really dont want to do cuz i herd they practice till they puck and iv never done it i dont want to be the sucky person on the tean and all that pluse the cheerleaders cheer for wrestiling and i have friends on the cheer team so id look all gross while they get to have fun id just wine to them the whole time it just think that this whole thing is gonna end with me getting my ass kick all season long DX oh and the guy i like is one the team so hes gonna see me all sweaty and probibly see me get slamed down a whole lot that just sucks DX

-zula

ps look XD



Scarlet by ~firequeenAzula on deviantART

Ya this is really bad but ya know I tryed. It's a little mature. this is for my hitsukarin community but i wanted to show you guys too.

-zula


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